Recently, I have been struggling with a lot different things. Mostly, what to do for my job. We were given the option to work part-time this summer. I discussed it with my husband and he suggested that I ask to work part time for the summer. I was torn. I've had two jobs almost my entire life. How could I drop down to part-time? How could we possibly make ends meet with just half of my usual paycheck to contribute? So many questions...
I prayed about it and felt that the Lord was leading me to go to part time. I thought had peace about it, but my "need to know things" mentality took over once again. Suddenly I was in worry mode. I was creating "what ifs" by the second and second guessing my decision. Could I change it? I had already put my request in to my boss.
I am also presently working on my National CDA. I am doing a fast track course and hoping to finish in the next 6 weeks. 120 credit hours in 6 weeks. A ton of work! More stress. I have a 450 page manual to read, a ton of assigments, tests to take and resources to gather. Again I wondered, "Am I doing the right thing Lord?"
I'm a "write it in the sky with fireworks" or "hit me over the head" about somethings. I struggle with trusting the Lord to provide at times and it has a lot to do with my upbringing. I've been praying, "Lord, I need you to show me that what I'm doing is the right thing. I need to know, without a shadow of a doubt that I'm in your will. Please just make yourself known to me in this situation."
Well, Monday as I began reading my textbook for my CDA, God answered my prayer. Not only did he answer my prayer, but literally called me by my name. Because as I said before... I'm a write it in the sky with fireworks kind of girl sometimes. Attatched is the picture to prove it. Every last word printed in the picture is truth.
God is good. God is faithful. God sees me
Genesis 16:13
New International Version (NIV)
13 She gave this name to the LORD who spoke to her: “You are the God who sees me,” for she said, “I have now seen[a] the One who sees me.”
Do Not Worry
25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[e]?
28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
WOW!